How i feel about life right now, comments please?

First of all, please write a book! That was terrific! Alright, now to get to your question. Yes, I understand what you mean. But realize that life has become dramatically simpler now than what it was in the past. Understand that life has changed from survival to a "novel" like you described it. I respect your opinion about children and I'm not surprised you feel that way. At your age (I'm guessing you're 20), you're going to feel scared about life. You probably have a lot of debt to pay off and you don't know where to start in this world. But remember, the world is a simple place right now. It may not seem like it, but it really is if you compare it to the past. It seems like you're an individual person who is looking forward to living life to the fullest. You want to take advantage of every moment you can and think of the path you take beforehand. However, that's not always the right choice. You'll think differently of these things as you progress in adulthood. Sure, you have your permanent thoughts and your many memories. But who are we to judge our future when we haven't yet finished living the past?